kesepian...

ari nie merupakn ari yg plg sekse tul...

terpakse tempuh kelas berseorangan.. xtau la ape yg tlh terjd..
nk nangis tp xleh bb kt skola la kn.. huhu tp seriusly..
mmg sheila tul2 kesepian.. tmpt ddk pn ade 3org..
tp sorg xdtg.. then tggl la lg 2org..
yg sorg lg plak.. die nk spent time dgn kwn2 die yg len..
so jd tggl lah sheila sorg2 kt tmpt ddk utk 3org tu..
hnye tuhan je yg tau prasaan sheila dlm kesepian tu..
huhuhuu

Written by pnas4eva

what is with my heart?

why do i feel so empty..?

what does my heart yearns for to be happy?

i can't even answer these questions..
once something is flowing into my mind through gossips, hatred, sadness..
n so on.. each day i would wake up n trying to find some hope..
but sometimes finding hope isn't enough.. i need something else..
to make me really motivated.. but what should i find?

is there something that will occupy the spaces in my heart..
that is bleeding for what we call "the past".
a lot has happened to me..

especially "Friends Fighting Over Each Other"
i don't want the same thing happen to me again..
i can't afford to lose my heart again..
even it is filled with love..
i feel as if some of it has leaked from my heart
through the scratches n wounds that was made
through out the things that has been happening to me..

can't afford of losing my heart to a new love..
a love that i felt all by my own..
without any help, love just came by..
n struck me with cupid's arrow as i fell in love with him..

written by pnas4eva

ape akn terjadi??

perh..! ari nie mmg memenatkn tul! =/

da la pose.. tp leh plak terbatal!nk tau cmner cte leh terbatal nie??
haha.. gni cte nyer,,
mle2 blek ke umh fazella.. stay kt umh die jap bb nk pinjam komik die..
pastu da mse wktu mkn..
sheila dgn bangga nyer pn mkn skali! tnpe sedar kn diri..
da abz 1 pggn nasi+lauk n 1 cwn air..
ble semua da abz mkn, time utk relax plak..
so sblm ddk, sheila msuk kn tgn dlm poket..
rase gule2 yg diberi oleh sesorg..
pastu sheila pn terpk..
(gule2 nie nnt nk mkn wktu BERBUKE la nnt)

Pstu bru sheila TERSEDAR! tgn trus ade ats kple.. smbil jerit..
"korg! sheila kn pose! nape sheila mkn??!!"
"ya allah ya tuhan! cmner leh xpasan dlm duk sedap mkn td?!"
(jeritan di tuju kpd eka,intan,fazell n fyra)
then sume gelak kn sheila yg PELUPE nie.. huhuhu
abz la,.. penat sekerat ari pose.. huhu pg td tahan je ble tgk org mkn..
tp last2 nyer,, diri sendiri yg mkn dgn RELA nyer!
hahah mmg klakar tul cter nyer!ayoyoyoyo...
jd kn lah peristiwa ini sebagai pengajaran ye..
jgn jd cm sheila nie.. ish3!

pose nk kene smbg mggu dpn la plak. mlz nk pose time cuti..
nnt rase time lmbt plak..
huhu sheila2.. tu la.. seronok sgt dpt hang out dgn kwn,,
kn da mahkruh da pose!
huhuhu well then .. see u all in the next post!

Written by pnas4eva

TERSEDAR...

pd permulaan ari skola.. mmg tension gler rase nyer..xdpt nk gmbr kn betape sedih nyer sheila (dsbbkn sesuatu hal...) ble da smpi skola.. sheila jmpe intan lu.. tp secara tbe2 n xsngaje.. air mata sheila mule bergenang.. ape lg.. sheila trus ajk die ke tnds.. ade la beberape titik air mate jatuh.. sheila luah kn ape yg terpendam dlm ati sheila wktu tu.. akhir nyer,, loceng pn da bunyi. so sheila soh la intan g bratur lu.. bb tkot kene tgkp plak..


ble da abz skola plak.. sheila tmnkn eka jap utk jmpe dgn Pn. Zaleha @ Pn. Zabedah.. tp xde la plak.. huhuh so eka dgn brat nyer ati.. blek umh.. sheila plak.. wktu nk trun tgga ternmpk zana..(adk),, terkejut gler sheila ble ternmpk tgn kiri die berbalut.. tanye la nape.. rupe2 nyer,, tgn terseliuh agk nyer..

then ble naek blek ke klas.. btul kn tdg jap.. pstu berjmpe dgn atikah(pen. pengawas) plak.. bb nk wt aduan tntg tugasan n laen2..
lepas tu atikah mle cte tntg tugas die sebagai pen.pngws.. die ckp mmg byk keje ble die xplain kt sheila 1 per 1 keje yg kene wt.. bru skg sheila SEDAR! tu bru keje penolong.. byg kn klu ketua.. kini bru sheila tau ape mkne kate2 "DIE".. sheila SEDAR sgt yg sheila mmg pntg kn diri sndiri.. sheila xnmpk dr perspektif diri DIE.. so anyways,, sheila dgn DIE da bebaek da.. no more mistakes! now i know how bz he is.. so i'll try to hold on..

i hope from this day onwards.. i will become as strong as u..
love u always!

Written by PNAS4EVA

sakit pale!

huhu ari nie... sungguh menyakitkn..nk blajar pn,, kpale duk terigtkn kt bnde laen..

byk gler bnde yg kusut kt kpale sheila nie..erm,, how do u make it go away??
i can't help but think,, think n think about it..da la ari ni pose...
lglah xlarat.. adoi.. nk aje sheila peluk die bg m'hilang kn sume probs yg ade kt fikiran sheila skg nie... waduh waduh waduh... i miss u so much

sheila agak tkot la.. tkot dsbbkn pgkt,, die akn jauh lebih cbuk dr biase..
smpikn tegur dgn sheila pn xnk.. i mean i know u're looking at me..
n i waved at u.. but u just walked away towards ur class..
i was so frustrated that i can't even fokus on skul...
sume bnde jd xbtul.. n hanye dsbbkn die xlmbai aje kt sheila...
cmne nie? sheila xnk hbgan kite jd begini... msg pn da jrg..
kt skola apelg.. da la dpt jmpe ble terserempak aje...
ari tu dtg dkt dgn sheila pn bb nk tegur hadah aje psl kene pkai bju pss..
sheila yg duk sblh hadah,, cm xnmpk je.. pastu die pn,, nmpk cm bz sgt..
really am scared of what's going to happen...

feelings straight from the heart,
pnas4eva

kelas TERBERSIH!!

hehe waa... xsgke plak ari ni kelas 4gigih dpt klas terbersih!

hahaha berkat stayack kt skola..
hehehe ari ni jugak merupakn ari plg cbuk? rse nyer la..
huihuh dlm klas td ade perbincangan tntg ari koko nnt..
ape nk jual.. itu.. ini.. hmm... cmne nie??
peti yg sheila kene bwk nie kecik la pulak.. igt kn ckup besa
rupe2 nyer kecik plak.. adoi.. cmne nie??
huhuh kene inform blek kt cikgu esk..
mybe leh pinjam yg thaqif punyer kut??
heheh saje nk cri peti lebih..lgpn die mmg ade kn?
hmm.... arap2 sume bende dpt la urus dgn lancar nyer...

i dont care.. i still love him!

biarlah ape pun org nk ckp...

maybe die jd cmtu di sbb kn ape yg tlh terjd..
plus maybe die mmg cmtu..
i dont really care.. i know he really loves me..
n i love him.. i will endure anything for him!
until we can be together peacefully without any interruption...
i know sometimes that he can be quite.. u know..
but i dont mind.. eventhough i'm hurt by it..
i know there's a better day tomorrow...
n the day that i dreamed of will come one day.
i'll just have to wait for it...

written by pnas4eva

my frens...

today me and my frens stay back at skul..

(me,hadah,intan,fazell)
seronok gler... haha pastu dpt bce+pinjam komik!
hehehe hope everyone is OGENKI DES..(doing fine)
just came back from skul n very tired!
hope that i can get enough sleep tonight!
hmm... i also hope that HE is doing fine as well
eventhough we have our ups n downs..
we will always be togather no matter what!

what happen on my bezday on the 21st June 2010

waaa... u did it ayg! u got to be the FIRST one to wish my birthday to me...
i'm so glad ur the first one..hehe biase la kn... tp pelik cket ari nie...
bb tgh2 mlm da biarkn FB bkk tp xde sape pn wish..
tp bnde plg terkejut terjd! mlm tu ramai plak yg wish..
heheh mmg eppy gler la sheila! to all my wishers,,
thanx for all ur wishes! i'm glad u guys remembered my birthday!
ehehe especially my LOVE one..!
i will always love u 4eva..

about today..

its has been a really tiring day... so much to do...
kena wt yg markah koko tu la...pastu byk keje skola yg xsiap kene anta esk plak tu...
da la smlm tdo kul 1...dlm kul 4 lebih td ade la jugak nk tdo..tp dpt tdo pn kejAP je...
then terpakse smbung wt keje...firstly kene wt kje agame..
then math,pastu bi plak kene wt esei...
huhu then ade kwn2 soh lukis...i mean i dont mind but..
too much of a good thing is bad.. u know?
hm... i hope i can do it when i want to...n not when i have to!
hehe that's it for today...